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There is one concept that I keep stumbling onto. Still, I have not yet given it a serious try. But… as I keep seeing references to it, I am starting to think I should take it a bit more seriously.

Have I got snow on my head?

Some time ago, I mentioned a very special experience I had as a young teen. It seems like I had a spontaneous obe in which I… well, I seem to have gotten to a place where I wasn’t supposed to be. Because this oh-so-powerful being sent me back, crash and bang. It’s all described in here:

https://myinnerpath.wordpress.com/2011/12/14/god-godess-mother-earth-angels/

The day after that experience I was thinking, and thinking, and thinking. While going about my everyday business my mind was somewhere else, totally immersed in the conundrum of who I had met and what the experience really meant. And I thought about magic.

While sitting on a bus I put the question out there: could I do real magic?

Somehow, I got a whispered reply. At that moment I interpreted it as coming from the being that I had encountered in my obe, but I really don’t know about that.

He told me that yes, I could do anything.

But how?

He said the answer lie in complete awareness.

He let me understand that if I could reach true and complete awareness all the time I could manipulate the world around me in ways that to the ordinary human seems impossible. In other words, magic.

At this point I got a bit scared. To me, it seemed like complete awareness would force me to give up fantasies. After all, while immersed in a fantasy one is not as aware of the surroundings! And following on that thought, I got a thought that really gave me the chills. I wondered if complete and utter awareness wouldn’t eliminate empathy?

In my mind I saw a scenario that scared me. I saw myself with all kinds of magic powers, but without the ability to relly feel. Hurriedly, I told the being no. I’d rather keep my ability to fantasize, to place myself in other people’s situations and feel, than have magic powers. And after my clear no, the being disappeared.

Since then, the concept of mindfullness has gotten pretty popular. Which really is just a fancy word for being aware. I’ve even got a book on the subject, which I got from my mom this christmas.

Now the last couple of weeks, I have read a whole lot about different methods of how to achieve hightened spiritual abilities. Yes, magic. And somehow, all excercises seem to include a very important part: awareness.

I’ve been trying to find a link to the site I was reading on the other day, which held such a good example of this, but noooo… can’t find it. But it was about so called Chaos magic, and held practical excercises to sharpen the mind and prepare for magic. And what did those excercises start out with? Sitting back and noticing everything. Just being aware.

This morning I followed the link provided by Xanth, in a comment to a previous blog post of mine. The blog post was about how to have and OBE, and Xanth referred to the concept of phasing. Following the links I got to exercises, meant to eventually lead to OBEs. And guess what? It’s all about being aware.

As you surely already know, Buddhist meditation is also all about awareness. Being completely immersed in the now.

That first thing I mentioned, the message from the unknown entity telling me that the road to magic and spiritual abilities lies in complete awareness… I was just a kid. The modern mindfulness hadn’t even been invented. And I still thought meditation was all about NOT being aware, to just float away in the mind… So the message truly came out of the blue, and I am convinced it was a true spiritual message from a source that probably knew what it was talking about.

And remember that the thought that complete awareness would lead to a loss of the ability to fantasize and empathize was just my own conclusion…

I’m thinking I really should give this awareness thing a serious try.

 

Oh, on a side note… Last night when I couldn’t sleep I did a tiny little mental exercise. I simply tried to notice any images or thoughts that happened to float through my mind, but without getting stuck in it. Sigh… Isn’t one supposed to get basic darkness in which glimpses of things appear? Huh. I get a solid stream of images with the occational glimpses of darkness. Kinda tiresome to keep noticing all, actually. I guess I need a bit of practice…

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Good evening dear readers!

Today I had a little heart-to-heart conversation with my dear mother, and I told her about the message I’d gotten for her from her dad and grandma. Mom was first very quiet, and then seemed relieved somehow. Apparently the message had hit home a bit better than I’d thought. Then we started talking about certain experiences, and I mentioned my one and only out of body experience. Have I told you about that?

It was a completely spontaneous event some 6-8 years ago, and was scary as hell. You see, I didn’t expect it to happen and hadn’t even thought such a thing was possible. But all of a sudden, I was floating in mid air. First my left side had lifted, and then my right. I was in complete shock. I clearly wasn’t levitating, since my body was still down there, but I was hovering in mid air! When I realized I didn’t know how to get down I panicked. Yea, really. I thrashed and kicked like crazy in utter terror, trying desperately to get back into my body. After a little while I managed to calm down, and somehow realized that I needed to calm myself. As I pushed away the panic I regained control and suddenly I could lower myself into my body again, first one side and then the other, just like going up. I don’t think I’ve ever been so relieved in my entire life!

Turned out Mom had also had a few out of body experiences. Though when I mentioned that I’d recently been actively trying to achieve one again she just laughed. For her, it seems like a weird thing to do on purpose, probably because her own experiences seem to have been connected to very dark premonitions. My experience on the other hand was very local, and didn’t really seem to mean anything. It was just that my mind/soul/whatever popped out of my body without warning. No visions, no spirit messages or anything. Just very cool. =)

I’ve been reading about different techniques people say are good when trying to get an out-of-body experience/astral project themselves. And I gotta say, most of it to me sounds more like visualization or just a focused meditation. Imagining how I pull myself out of my body, or float out from the top of my head or imagine myself as a ball of light that floats away… Tell me how that’s not really “just” visualization? Now I can see the value in that too, I’m sure some people might get accurate visions or do remote viewing this way. But it sure as hell (pardon the language) doesn’t sound anything at all like what I experienced. It wasn’t some kind of visualization. I wasn’t creating images in my mind. It felt so damn physical! I wasn’t projecting my mind to a place outside my body, I just was outside my body! With no sense of the actual physical body whatsoever, not even the slightest hint that the physical me still extisted! I couldn’t feel the surface underneath my body, couldn’t move or even open my eyes even if I tried! Instead, whenever I tried to move it was my etheric body that responded (hence the kicking and thrashing and trying to get down). That was the >only< body I could sense at all.

Now I don’t know if that is really “normal” in astral projection, but that’s what I’d like to experience again, in a controlled way. But I really don’t know how to do this, as the techniques I’ve found online don’t work for me. Yes, I’ve tried. I visualize whatever is recommended (for example climbing a rope that stretches out of my body) and… I just continue to visualize. It becomes almost like a meditation where I create a scenario in my head. But that’s the problem, I never actually leave my own head. In other words, no real out-of-body experience.

Sigh… Do you understand my dilemma? Have you got any similar experiences? Any advide that doesn’t involve simple visualizing how I get out? I have been trying a little almost every day for the last couple of weeks, during my regular evening-meditation. And I think I’ve managed to get my hands free. And I’ve felt a weird sort of rocking motion going on, almost like my astrail body tried to get out but couldn’t. So I can get to the point where I am moving just a tiiiiiny bit without actually moving. Am I making any sense here?

Anyhow, ideas or comments are very welcome! I’d love to hear your thoughts on this!

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