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Hey there, I’m back home again after a couple of hours of hard work, and I thought I should tell you a little bit more about that strange event last night.

First of all, let me say this: I’m pretty sure this was a so-called “supernatural” event. Not that it isn’t natural… I just mean I really can’t find a physical reason for those dark drops to have ended up on me. I was inside in a perfectly dry room. No open windows, no condensation above. I was sitting perfectly still and couldn’t have knocked something over or anything, and I was alone in the room (my Husband was on the second floor) so there was no-one there who could have been teasing. The drops literally came out of nowhere.

 

Ok, making the assumption that the whole thing was somehow spiritually connected, there are now a number of questions floating in my mind. My gut reaction right after it happened was to sit down an meditate, and see if anything came up. Using the runes to ask for answers also felt like a good idea.

 

So I sat down and went into meditation, trying to reach both Mother and Father. And also Freya, since she’s come to me recently with some insights. With closed eyes I fingered my bag of runes, and started to ask questions.

Those dark drops… what were they? 

I drew three runes: Ansuz – Wunjo – Thurisaz

The first rune confirms the spiritual nature of the whole event, signalling that they originated in the spiritual or divine realm, and that they might even have been a message. Wunjo points at joy and positive energy, or even love. Thurisaz is connected with male energy, a violent reaction, destruction or change. And of course, the mystical being called the thurs. All together, Ansuz-Wunjo-Thurisaz, the message seems to be rather potent. I’m still reluctant to write up a summary just yet, so hold on.

Next question. From whom?  

Laguz

Laguz, how appropriate. Basically, it means water. However, just as water in itself is rich in symbolic value, laguz has too. I realize that I formulated my question badly, not being clear on if I meant “who is talking to me now?” or “who sent me the dark drops?” So I asked again, wanting to clear it up.

Who is sending me this information now? Who am I talking to?

Ansuz – Týr

I can’t help smiling. Týr literally means “god”, though it most often refers to the god Týr. As I spontaneously felt for Týr, wondering if it really was him, I got a nice little surprise. A nice tug of recognition, and I realized that Týr is Father. I felt embraced in warm and comforting light. And with the combination ansuz-tyr I felt pretty happy.

So the Laguz I got earlier, am I right to assume that it referred to the origin of the drops, where they came from?

Dagaz

I can only interpret that as a yes, that’s right. (Dagaz representing dawn, insights and breakthroughs)

 

If the drops were a message, what did they mean? 

Algiz

Protection? Algiz is also often described as representing the actual link between humans and divine beings, as such also being connected to spiritual awakening and a higher life.

 

There is one more thing to consider before making any assumptions as to the point of the whole thing. What was I doing when it happened? What was I thinking at the moment?

As I said in this morning’s blog post, the drops appeared as I was reading a website about religion, destiny and messengers in the (absolutely amazing) sci-fi series Battlestar Galactica (seriously, it’s an incredible series and everyone should see it!!!). I was pondering the nature of oracles and occult practices. And just before the first drop appeared I asked myself if it was time for me to offer runic divinations to other people. So far I’ve only done it for myself and my mom, since I haven’t felt competent enough to go public, so to say. But maybe it is time?

Five seconds later the first drop ran down over the computer screen, and a couple of seconds later more drops splashed down on my right leg.

I can’t help thinking the dark drops were a reaction to that which I was thinking and asking myself. Combine that with the indications given by the runes, I’d say it’s pretty certain. Where did the drops come from? Or perhaps the question should have been WHERE did they come from? Laguz, the astral plane. Laguz, spiritual powers. Laguz, the unconscious mind. Laguz, the hidden.

It almost feels as if the dark drops where physical manifestation of that which is Laguz. A little part of the hidden powers dripping into our physical world.

What was that? Ansuz-Wunjo-Thurisaz. A divine message, of joy and great change. Happy thurs. The positive side of the dangerous force that is thurs?

What was the message, what did it all mean? My gut feeling is that there is no great message, but more of a confirmation that a link is established between me and the astral. Algiz, the link between humans and divine beings.

As such, I think I have my answer. I asked if I was ready to serve and use whatever skill I have in divination, to help others communicate with the divine. I think the answer is yes.

 

That is my gut feeling about all of this weirdness. Does it sound plausible or am I reading way too much into this? Do you have any other interpretations? I am in no way certain of it all, I’m just trying to make sense of a totally weird experience which even threw my scientist and non-believer of a husband (he seemed almost worried, and joked that we were being haunted, but his voice actually sounded kinda serious.)

And if anyone of you want to be my first guinea-pig for runic divination,  raise your hand or shout out loud or send me smoke signals or something. I think it’s time I start doing this.

Love and light

/Journeymaid

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Creepy Catty Encounter

Something interesting just happened while we were outside walking our cats. Where we live now it’s not at all practical to let them out on their own, so we use leashes which actually works really well. Anyhow, I was holding Balthazar. He’s a very strong AND strong-minded cat who is more than a little bossy. He’s the kind of cat that loves walking up to unsuspecting dogs and freaking them out by kissing them right on the nose. =)

Now, quite a lot of people had walked by without Balthazar reacting any more than oh-well-there’s-another-human. But then all of the sudden, there was this one guy that walked by. A teenage boy of perhaps 17-18 yrs old, no different from the other boys who had also passed us, wearing a hoodie and a baseball cap, just like everyone else. He walked neatly with his hands in his pockets, without making any noise or behaving differently in any way.

Balthazar gave the guy one look, and was terrified. Wild-eyed, he ran homewards and refused to calm down no matter what I said. He dragged me all the way home (really dragged me, he’s a really strong cat and pulled quite hard on the leash!) and it wasn’t until we arrived on our doorstep that he looked up on me. His eyes were filled of fear.

Now that we’re inside, he’s ok again. It was just the first minute or two that he was still a bit on edge, so to say.

There was something about that teen that scared the crap out of Balthazar, the otherwise oh so brave and strong cat. There was absolutely nothing unusual about this kid that regular humans could pick up, and I probably wouldn’t have noticed anything unless B had reacted the way he did, but I am completely sure that something was really wrong.

think there was an aggressive energy oozing from that teenage boy. Not just the normal teen rebellious type, but more serious. Something dangerous. It felt like violence.

Oh, how I long for the day we can move out of this neighborhood!

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The circle I cast tonight felt more solid and powerful than ever. I laid out the boundaries with a long string of tiny hematites. Then I called on the elements to protect and strengthen my circle.

For the first time, I didn’t need to visualize the elements, I just saw them anyway. The roaring fire, the whistling wind, the strong earth, the whirling water… all rising aroung the edges of the circle.

Asked the Father to join me and protect the circle, and lit his candle. Asked the same from the Mother and lit her candle as well.

Then I called out for Odin, asked him to come and help me, and of course I lit his own candle too.

(Some say that you absolutely CAN NOT use the same candle twice. I for one don’t think it will cause any problems to use the same candle several times, at least not when it is for the same purpose. So far the Mother, the Father, Odin and Shangó all have their own candles, that only get lit when I wish to connect with them in some way.)

When the circle felt good I got to work. The first task: create blessed oil.

I poured newly purchased olive oil (extra virgin!) in a beautiful little glass bottle and declared my intention. Thrice I asked the Mother to bless this oil. Thrice I asked the Father to bless this oil. I put the bottle down on the altar and set my hands together, collecting all my strength and drawing energy into a ball held between my palms. It wasn’t all easy, I had to really focus and give it my all, but I knew exactly what I wanted to do and I would not give up easily.

During this part of tonight’s ritual, something funny happened with Mother’s and especially Father’s candles. The flames where abnormally huge. Father’s flame must have been some 12-13 cm tall! And all flames were completely still and motionless, and just huge. That almost got me to drop my focus, as I spent a moment to contemplate the size of the flames, but then I had to continue.

Slowly slowly I brought the ball of energy to the oil. Let the oil soak up the energy, let the energy make the oil powerful and holy. It took some time to get it done, and took fierce concentration.

When the blessing of the oil was done, the candle flames had suddenly returned to normal size. That makes me feel very confident that the blessing actually worked, so thank you Mother and Father!

With me in the circle I had the small pieces of wood that I prepared yesterday, that I had decided to make into runes. I smeared each and every piece with the blessed oil to cleanse them.

When that was done I started with the runes themselves. Turns out the tool I got for Christmas wasn’t one of those wood burners after all, but an engraving tool! And that worked just fine on wood as well, allthough it was terribly noisy. But, the noise was also a bit meditative so I didn’t mind.

The runes have been carved. Or rather, engraved. That’s all for now, I’ll save the consecration for tomorrow or the day after that. Right now I’m just too tired to do anything else, and it wouldn’t be safe for me to start poking myself with needles to draw blood, I really gotta be awake and focused for that.

Interestingly, the most interesting part of tonight’s ritual didn’t turn out to be the carving of the runes (which felt less spiritual and more crafty, despite my attempts at keeping the spiritual focus) but the blessing of the oil. Just as when I blessed salt water to cleanse my gems in, I could really FEEL it happening. The candle flames growing crazy big helped too, it was such a tangible sign that I was really on to something. Now that, I like. =)

 

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Working on raising my defenses against negative energy/influence, I have been reading a lot about the properties of various semi-precious stones. Most of this knowledge wasn’t really new, as my mother taught me a whole lot on the subject already when I was a kid. However, much of that knowledge has become somewhat blurred, and I find it strengthens me to re-discover it.

I have quite a collection of stone beads left from when I used to make jewlery. Amethyst, jade, carnelion, tiger’s eye, rose quartz… And today I also bought a small pack of onyx beads, and a whole string of hematite chips. I would of course have preferred to have larger stones… but for now it will have to do.

I also rummaged through my jewlery box and pulled up an amber pendant, a ring set with a piece of amber, a jade pendant, and a pendant I once made containing little beads of rose quartz and jade. Then there was the gorgeous necklace and matching earrings (my husband’s parents got them for me after their visit to China) made out of a whole lot of rather big, red stones. Not sure what kind, actually. At first I thought it was an unusually dark kind of carnelion… but now I don’t think so. Looks more like red jasper, I think.

All these gems I have worn at different times of my life, and all have also spent quite a lot of time just laying around. So before anything else, I felt I needed to cleanse them of any residual energy from the past.

I got down in front of my makeshift altar (a rather large wooden box with a flat top that I use to store all my spiritual goodies and candles in) and set up the Mother’s candle, and the Father’s candle.

I lit their candles and asked for their presence.

Two blue glass bowls with water I placed on the altar. I wish I had more bowls available but two would have to do. I asked the Mother to bless the water.

Holding some salt in my hand, I asked the Father to bless the salt with his power. I then mixed the salt with the water.

The salt water gave off a very good vibe and truly felt blessed. Not wanting to simply wipe the water from my finger’s (it felt like such a waste) I smeared some on my own forehead, asking the Mother and Father to bless me. And some I smeared on my belly, asking them to bless my womb and help me conceive.

I then picked up the different gem stones, held them up and whispered at each an every one: With the power of the Mother and the Father, I cleanse you.

Carefully I placed the larger pieces (the ones I think is red jasper) in one bown, and the smaller pieces in the other.

Putting my hands over the bowls, palms down, I was struck by an unexpected sense of… well not power, really, that just sounds too big. No, it was more of a light and bubbly something radiating from underneath my hands. It was very obvious that something was going on there, and I have no doubt in my mind that the gems will be cleansed better than I could have hoped for.

When I finally withdrew my hands I was still amazed by the feeling, and didn’t really want to let go just yet.

Moving my hands towards eachother I willed energy to appear, as I have done before. And it came quickly, a slightly bouncy resistance in the “empty” space between my hands, growing larger for every breath I let out. It grew faster and bigger than ever before, and I revelled in the feeling. I analyzed every bit of the sensation, noticing how the energy shrunk slightly when I breathed in, how it was such a clear resistance when I tried to push my hands closer together and wondering exactly what the energy was. And now that it was growing so quickly between my hands, I mainly wondered what the heck I could do with it!   Not being able to figure it out, I eventually let it go, enjoying a quick sensation of it enveloping my head for a moment before it disappeared.

Some day I have to figure out what one can actually do with such a bouncy ball of energy. And how to do anything with it, except just enjoying the feel of it between my hands! Any suggestions?

I want to thank the Mother and Father so much for tonight’s experience. For the last day or so I’ve been wondering if I have any potential to do magic at all, or if I am only gifted with passive skills such as prophetic dreaming and such, and I was so afraid of being met with blank as I tried to work with the gems. But now I feel only joyful and empowered. I asked the Mother and Father to bless the water and salt, and they did. I know it, I could feel it in the very essence of the water. And placing the gems in the water and speaking those words I know I did something. A little bit of my own power willed them to be cleansed. As I felt the light and tingling energy I knew that I had just performed just a tiny bit of magic. That makes me so happy I can’t even describe it, and after trying to type an appropriate sentence about it 15 times or so I am just going to leave it at that. Happy happy joy joy! =)

 

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First of all, let me just say thank you for the insightful advice I got for my last post. Know that I listen very carefully to all comments, and I deeply appreciate any honest comments.

Then I’d like to mention one of the things that came up in the comments. I know some people would say that it is bad, or perhaps even evil, do work magic on an unknowing subject. Now I would not say that is the case, so categorically. In this particular case it’s all about me wanting to help a person, and at the same time protect those around her (including myself, yes). In my opinion this is nothing different than calling the ambulance when you see a person in an accident, or calling the police when you see a burglar breaking into your neighbours home. I mean, you wouldn’t wait to get permission from the victim, would you? Of course, this isn’t a clear-cut analogy since practicing magic for someone is more personal, but Í find the most important thing is that the purpose is to heal and protect. I do, however, deeply resepct people with a stricter moral take on this.

I also realize that this is not something I can rush into, I need both practice and preparation. And perhaps, after a bit of preparation I may even find out that the ritual I’m planning isn’t even necessary! I got the advice to at least start by learning how to shield myself from the negative influence, and I think that’s a very good plan. As I menioned in the previous post I have previously asked the Mother for strength, bringing up peaceful energy from Her to help me throughout the day, and while that has helped me somewhat in the moment it hasn’t done anything at all for the root of the issue, and at times the negative energy has still managed to get through to me. And the result of that being instant headaches and general flu-like symptoms, feelings of immense sadness without any real reason, and general uneasiness.

In other words, I need to start putting up real defensive shields.  Now I just gotta find out how…

I am also planning on visiting my mom to pick up some stuff I still have back in my old room.  First of all, I gotta find my old crystal. Then, I gotta bring home my staff. You see, when I was just a kid I found this beautiful naturally straight staff in the woods. I brought it home and carefully peeled off the outer rough layer. Then I carved it with runes and on a hunch I actually… sort of… used my own menstrual blood to empower it. Yea, that may sound a bit icky but I just felt I had to do it. Afterwards, that staff became such a source of protection. It had almost like an aura of warmth and strength. Holding it made me feel calm and protected. I didn’t really realize how powerful it was until after I’d moved out and my mom told me that she’d actually moved it to her room. It helped her through some hard times, and when she was particularly haunted by anxiety she’d even place it next to her in bed while sleeping, and it had comforted her. Just as I had done, which I’d never told her about.

I will bring my staff here, reconnect to it, and hopefully it will help protect me and my home.

So this is where I will start off. If anyone has personal experience using any particular protective spell or ritual I’d love to see it and perhaps try it, otherwise I will try to create my own.

Talk to you later!

p.s. I might lack experience in actual spellwork… but I am a warrior, physically and mentally. And in the end, I will not stop at just protecting myself if there is any chance I can do something about the root of the problem, and in doing so help protect the people around me. That is, if something really is attacking my boss or my work place, I will try to do something about it. It’s not just about me, after all. People get physically SICK in my workplace, and I have to at least try to do something about it. After all, the office did elect me as the safety representative… 😉 If they only knew how seiously I take that task! 😛

 

 

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Last night as I went to bed I realized it is time for me to attempt to do some real magic. *takes a heavy breath*

This is all new to me. Though I have chatted with spiritual beings for years, and often have prayed or asked for assistance, I have never actually attempted a real spell. The difference, of course, being that this time I will not just simply ask nicely for help, I will actually try to do the deed myself.

Here is a bit of background:

I have always felt like my boss have a bit of a problem. She is extremely tense all the time, and while I’ve previously just thought it might be a result of being overworked, I am now wondering if it might not be so simple. In fact, I am starting to wonder if she hasn’t got something nasty and negative spiritual being attached to her. Whether or not that’s the case, I want to try and do something about it, both for her sake and for the rest of the office.

Perhaps you could help me with a second opinion? Here are the facts, plain and simple.

> She seems to never relax. Ever.

> She is constantly prepared for battle and responds  with aggression to any questions or comments, as if she expects everything to be an attack.

> People are scared of her.

> Her energy feels a bit like a cactus, spiky and aggressive.

Despite all this, I would honestly say that she has no ill intentions whatsoever. She is also very clever and works hard (too hard!) to make the office successfull. At one point she even came to me, asking for an honest opinion on how she is really perceived. Because somehow people tend to perceive her as a bitch. At that moment I felt like I saw her soul, raw and vulnerable.

This is also interesting:

> People tend to get sick a whoooole lot in our office. Headaches are standard and we eat a freaky amount of painkillers just to get through the day. I myself have experienced getting tough headaches just from walking into the same room as her.

> I came down with a very sudden and unexpected cold yesterday. I was fine when I went to work, I sat down at the morning meeting and listened to her and noticed that she seemed to still be worried about the stuff we’d discussed the night before and was particularly thorns-out-passive-aggressive. I went out from the morning meeting and sat down at my desk. Withing ten minutes my head was aching, my throat was sore, my nose was running and I felt like I had a fever. And I couldn’t sell anything. Though I’m usually one of the absolute best, it just wouldn’t work.

I guess I have two different theories. Either my boss is so overworked that she herself exudes this very negative energy, or she is in the middle of an outside force that envelops her in negativity and aggression. I am leaning towards the second theory, since the whole thing is so extreme. I’ve seen people who are overworked to the limit of insanity, I’ve even myself succumbed to depression due to stress, but this is so extreme and feels almost unnatural. Plus, my intuition tells me she herself isn’t actually the cause of the problem, but rather a victim.

So far, I’ve asked the Mother help me be a point of stability at work, and have had a lot of focus on exuding calm and harmony to counter any aggressive energy. This might have done some good, and the other employees very easily comes to me for help and support  various questions. But it hasn’t improved the situation with the boss herself. Remember I said she tends to react to anything as if it was an attack? Well, people starting to turn to me for support seems to have made her think of me as competition, challenging her authority. Sigh…

So now what do I do? My plan so far is to do what I have never done before: active magic. The situation is so bad that I really need to give it my all, for the sake of all.

Since doing spellwork is completely new to me, I would deeply appreciate any suggestions. My plain so far is to:

> Cast a circle.

> Invite the Mother and Father to join me and assist me in the venture.

> Call out to my own spiritual guardians or guides and ask them to protect me and aid me.

> Call out to any positive spirit that may be close the my boss, such as a guardian spirit or spiritual guide, and ask them to come to my circle. Before them, state my purpose as being for her own good as well as for the good of everyone around her, and ask for their assistance.

> (Now for the tricky part!) Call out to any negative presence or energy that might be surrounding her, and BANISH it.

> Call out for any well-meaning spirits and send them to her. Ask them to surround her with feelings of love and peace. Ask them to protect her from any mallicious spirits that may try to get at her.

> Turn to her spiritual guardian/guide and give thanks for their help, and ask them to return to her.

>Turn to my own spiritual guardians/guides and thank them for my help, asking them for continued protection against any spiritual retribution from any mallicious being I might have pissed off.

> Thank the Mother and Father for their love and protection, and ask them to keep protecting me.

> Close the circle.

So, this is my plan so far. How to actually do this, I am not so sure of, yet. Suggestions and ideas are very very welcome! Especially the part where I need to banish the mallicious spirit I really need to figure out. After all, I have no idea what may be surrounding my boss, for all I know it could be the tinyest little nonsense or the scariest demon. So in other words, I need to know what I am doing and have a detailed plan.

This is not something I will rush into, and when I have written the actual words of the ritual I think I’ll post them here for you to read and possibly comment on. And this may sound silly, but I’ve never actually cast a true circle before. So I should probably try only that part first, so I know how to do it for real and not just in theory. So perhaps I should start by doing a ritual where I only cast the circle, invite the Mother and Father, and ask for the presence of my spiritual guide/guardians to ask them for advice in the matter? Or what do you think?

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A couple of years ago, a much loved politician in our country was attacked. I remember hearing it on the evening news, and while not a lot was known then about the details it was clear that she had been stabbed,  and that she had been brought to the emergency.

The whole nation was holding its breath, in shock. To think that such a thing could happen here!

That night, I went to bed early. After hearing about the attack I went directly to my room, feeling that I had to at least try to do something. I laid down on my bed and started going into meditation. I tried to open up and connect to her.  I repeated her name and imagined a string of energy reaching from my body to hers.

I remember feeling the connection establish. Now I was just a teenage girl with limited experience, and I had no illusions of being a great healer or anything. But I repeated my message: Take what you need of my energy. Use my energy to heal and stay alive. 

That was all I could do. I focused intensely on keeping open a link to her and repeated that message, opening up for her to use my energy if she needed it. I fell asleep with that thought.

In the middle of the night I woke up. I could still feel the connection and repeated my message once more.

Then I dreamt a long and quite disturbing dream. I dreamt of telling to young boys that their mother had died.

Early in the morning, I woke again, startled. The connection was lost, it was as if it had been cut. I looked at the alarm clock beside my bed, it was about 5.30. Feeling an incredible sadness but also a sort of stillness, I went back to sleep.

Turned out she had died at 5.30 in the morning in the hospital. She left behind to young sons.

 

 

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