Archive for January, 2013

Today has been a struggle. I woke up with a horrible feeling in my gut, having just dreamed a bad dream. Tonight I’m going to see my shrink for the first time of 2013. It always makes me feel bad beforehand, and sometimes it gives me such anxiety that I don’t actually make it there, but during our talks and afterwards it always feels good.

Knowing I’ve got therapy tonight was not enough though. I also had a nasty phonecall to make that I’ve been putting off for weeks now. This means for most part of today I’ve felt nauseous and trembling, plus a headache.

I’m just about to head down to therapy. Still scared shitless. I guess that’s why I’m writing this. But the most important thing I would like to tell you is that I’m happy, and really pleased with the day despite all it’s awfulness. Even though I’ve felt like crap since the moment I opened my eyes I’ve still done what I’ve had to do. I’ve followed my list to the letter, and even made that nasty phonecall. And that’s what I want to focus on, knowing that I did a good job today and I can be proud of myself.

Love and light


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